My First Blog Post

For years (at least 3 or 4) I have had a love-hate relationship with the idea of starting a blog.  Part of me loved the idea and wanted to do it, because I like to write, and I like the idea of having a place to just get some thoughts out of my mind and down on a page where they can be saved and re-read, and not ultimately lost and forgotten. The other part of me hated the idea.  I am not brave enough to put my thoughts out there into cyberspace for anyone and everyone to read.  What if they don't like what I have to say?  Why would anyone really be interested in reading about my life?  I mean, not to be too self-deprecating, but seriously....everyone has enough to think about in their own lives.  I don't expect them to have time to read long, wordy posts (because I'm sure mine will always be long and wordy - that's just how I roll) about mine. I also hated the idea of a blog because I felt such pressure for it to be good and meaningful and even, at times, profound.  What colors would I choose?  What background photos would truly capture the most vibrant version of me and my life?  What title would be witty and clever, or poignant and heart-warming?  How would I write in a way that was appealing to read?  blah. blah. blah.  These are the questions that rolled around in my head and kept me from ever starting a blog.

But I am starting one today.  I decided to just get over it.  I am starting it for ME, and for my husband and my son.  I believe that from time to time there are some good and convicting and funny and witty thoughts here in my head, and that they are worth sharing in a form that my family can access not just now, but in the future.  I want Tyler to be able to read things I've written when he is older, and by doing so, have a more clear picture of his mom - who she is, how she views the world, what she values.  I believe by having a clearer picture of me, he will have a clearer picture of himself. I am also starting a blog because there are a lot of things happening in life all the time, and I need a way to track and remember.  My son is growing so quickly, and learning so much so fast.  I need a place to record the things that he says and the ways he is learning to be a part of this world and the little person he is becoming.  I want to record it now, while he is 1 1/2, so that I can remember it when he is 21.  So that he knows who he was as a tot, and how much his mom and dad adored him.

So I am just going to write.  I am not going to put pressure on myself to write about any certain topic on any given day, or to keep things super organized in categories, or have the most beautiful pictures or the catchiest titles or the most witty comments.  If you want to read anything, you are welcome.  I am happy to share my life with others, but I am okay if this is just a special place for my little family and our memories and musings, and nothing more.